Okay this may turn into a big history, but I think I need to give some background to why I need to wait and look for the light every day. It may require a few posts. :o)
As one who grew up in a godly home with parents that love the Lord dearly, I was a good, quiet obedient young lady. But all I did was based in my own ways and plans. I didn't know the Lord personally until a month or so before my 16th birthday.
Because of my "good works" before my conversion, I had trouble convincing my friends and pastor I wasn't saved before that time. (My parents, who knew me, were extremely supportive) I even had a couple friends tell me I was lying. My reaction to this was to put up a wall and not let anyone in. This was detrimental to my walk with God, but it was wrong because I didn't find my confidence in God. I was looking to the approval of others.
The wall pretty much summed up my spiritual life until college. It turned into pride and fear. But there was a brief time in the 2 years of college life I saw light and peace and growth. It was during the second year of school that I met Nate. From the time we knew we were to marry God started me on the journey to find my place and righteousness in Christ.
Thanks for sharing your life. I'm excited to hear more.
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